sometimes i'm just tired of being the good ol' dependable one. fuck that shit.

and yet, it always comes back to that.

so i feel like i'm just taken advantage of then. cuz you know. kim'll get it done. or kim'll do that for me. or kim'll be there for me to rely on. or kim is the good one...the one who will be there. always there, always willing to help cuz i can't stand to see people crash and burn. can't help but give a fuck, you know?

and i guess i shouldn't feel like this, that being reliable can be a curse. but in this world, its the people who aren't like me who get acknowledged, spoiled, thanked profusely, treated like their special.

i'm just here.

and it doesn't feel fair.


but then, i'm not bought like that.